Medic!!!

[Doc Stadig]

Are there any other medics around that are having "Fun With PTSD"
Thursday night I was having my "normal flashbacks" when all of a sudden I was seeing their "faces". I have always been able to avoid seeing "faces" all of my flashbacks had always been "faceless" patients. My VA psychologist says that is a "good sign."

Is he NUTS???

I have spent the last 30 years "enjoying" not seeing any identifiable marks on any of my patients. This was perfectly alright with me. These "faces" were the Viet-Nam POW's that I "learned my nursing skills" on. They came back to the states in the beginning of my 91C training. I had "stuffed" them, as well as many others, into my deep unconscious.
I don't want them coming back again!!!
I spent 30 years to keep them tucked away, if this is "actually a good sign" then by the year 2525 I should be cured, never more to wake up after my "normal" 1-2 hours sleep, in a cold sweat, never waking up doing CPR on my friend, never telling my neighbor "I'm sorry, your infant is gone", never seeing the seargeant down the street ..........!!! If you were a "Doc" you already know about this kind thing, the rest of can probably thank a "Doc" for saving your life, or even giving you a dose of penicillin for your visit to mama-san.
Sorry for the rant, I had to get it off my chest.
Rough for a first post, but we all had to make our first sometime.

[danausmc]

Are there any other medics around that are having "Fun With PTSD"
Thursday night I was having my "normal flashbacks" when all of a sudden I was seeing their "faces". I have always been able to avoid seeing "faces" all of my flashbacks had always been "faceless" patients. My VA psychologist says that is a "good sign."

Is he NUTS???

I have spent the last 30 years "enjoying" not seeing any identifiable marks on any of my patients. This was perfectly alright with me. These "faces" were the Viet-Nam POW's that I "learned my nursing skills" on. They came back to the states in the beginning of my 91C training. I had "stuffed" them, as well as many others, into my deep unconscious.
I don't want them coming back again!!!
I spent 30 years to keep them tucked away, if this is "actually a good sign" then by the year 2525 I should be cured, never more to wake up after my "normal" 1-2 hours sleep, in a cold sweat, never waking up doing CPR on my friend, never telling my neighbor "I'm sorry, your infant is gone", never seeing the seargeant down the street ..........!!! If you were a "Doc" you already know about this kind thing, the rest of can probably thank a "Doc" for saving your life, or even giving you a dose of penicillin for your visit to mama-san.
Sorry for the rant, I had to get it off my chest.
Rough for a first post, but we all had to make our first sometime.

Welcome to the Board Doc......you are among friends here so take whatever time or direction you need......there are some Corpsman and Medics here......Thanks Doc.

[ReconSGT_OIF]

Yes, welcome. I pray that you feel at home here and that you are able to get something meaningful as well.

[CFMTX5505]

1965-1967 91B20 age 20 when I got there and had aready spent 3 years in the Army. I started out as a Combat Engineer and then re-uped and went to Sam Houston for Medical training then Germany for 9 months and then VN by request of US Army. I was a Medic, Demolition, Communication, Light weapons specialist, light and heavy truck driver, Hand to Hand Combat instructor, and I held a Top Secret Clearance. That got me to VN and kept me there till the Huey quit flying and I was sent to Walter Reid to learn to walk again.

I always have dreams of piles of legs over there and a pile of arms in the other direction with the bodies in the middle but I can't find all the right peices to put every one back together correctly.

Here it is 2007 and I still get up at night and walk around to house looking at my perimiter. If a helecopter flies over at night I look for a place to wait to be picked up.

I had a counceler at American Lake VA medical Center, Tacoma, WA tell me I needed to put all that stuff in a box car and disconnect it from the train and go on. He had been stationed in Germany as a cleark typest for 2 years and then got out of the serviece and went to school to help us.

By the way every one if this posts goes through this is my first time in here.
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The Medic is there where you didn't want to go but the Lord was there waiting for us both.